Resolutionssss....

Once again, I'm on this resolution bug... Every year, when it's about to come to an end, I'll think of what I'd like to focus on the next year. What I'd like to improve on, what i'd like to do, to achieve. It's the same again for this.

Next year, I'd need to focus on
- organizing the wedding (Nov 17, make sure you mark that down on your calender)
- try to wake up in the early morning to do quiet time (just like I did in school - somehow I couldn't sustain for more than a couple of months doing this since I started working)
- try to wake up even earlier in the morning to jog.
- try to be regular for Royal Rangers if I can - besides going home to M'sia to settle the wedding stuff
- try to attend a cell regularly - and not dash (or run) here and there between weimin's cell / chinmung's cell

Of course, weimin wants me to join his cell since he felt i could learn more about family life and a parent's struggles with children there. I'm not exactly enthusiastic, because I don't know them. In fact I chickened out several times before that. It led to some conflict between us as he felt disappointed with me.

Resolution time also makes me moody...because resolution time is during december, when

- I spend more $$ than usual, so i feel poorer. You know, it's moody to feel poor.
- I feel tired and afraid of meeting more people or even catching up with old friends. I just want to stay at home and sleep so that I need not to speak to anyone.
- I usually feel more lousy during this period since it's year end and I realised I haven't achieved much of my resolutions I set the year before for this year.

Awww, you know, i hate to change after I get comfortable, but change is inevitable... or i'd be obsolete. December is just moody as I know I need pick myself up for major overhaul. That's the sad thing about resolutions. Maybe that's why it's damn hard to stick to. I never ever got all my list ticked at the end of the year. Consider it an achievement if it's even 50%.

Aside from feeling moody, I try to perk myself up by telling myself that : The old has gone (ok, it should be: "going") and the new has come!!